the prospect of having a heart condition really scares me. after all, if it's true, what will that mean about my life--what will it say about the way i've been living? will it be fatal? will it be a life long illness? will i be sick? will i have to give up the things i love? willl it completely change my life?


as i sit in lecture, my heart is racing for no apparent reason. i feel nauseous at the thought of it. i've noticed it for quite awhile, but attributed it to cigarette smoking or being unfit--maybe those were all causes of my illness. maybe my irresponsibility has finally come to bite me in the ass.