if you inflate your ego enough, it will pop--and you'll be left with nothing but memories of all the friendships that you'd ruined trying to make yourself feel like the shit. food for thought.

maybe we should all try and remember the golden rule, and how that has helped us in the past.

i'm tired of games, and i'm tired of the idiots who wanna play fucking games.

so, this is one of those rare occasions (with the exception of when i have a broken heart) where i am going to talk about a boy. let's call him John Noballs.

Now this guy is a fucking piece of WORK. His morals are on acid.

When I met this guy, he was semi-religious, respectful, and pretty goddamn awesome. Not to mention he's exactly the type of guy that i'm attracted to--from the city (no brainer because i met him in high school), skinny, and funny.

Fast forward about one year, I walk into an old work place, and tell him we should chill sometime. He then hits on me so I'm like "WTF." We text for awhile--I called him a pervert once and he responds, "no, I can't just be attracted to you?" Something I never would have expected. Him, like me?

fast forward another few months, he's a dick that just fucked with my mind for awhile. like literally, just took my mind, and my romantic inclination for him, popped them in a blender, and set it to purree.

and so he comes into work today, and the last few times that i've seen him there, i was a total weirdo. TOTALLY WEIRD. like avert my eyes, respond with single syllables, not want any physical contact (i'm usually a very huggable person)--so when he walks in today and i saw him, i walked to the back to quickly collect myself and then i walked out, waved hi (and he pretends to not know that i'm waving at him) and i willingly initiated a hug. i even made small talk and sat down to ask about how he's been. in the time that he was there, he said nice shorts, told me i had thunder thighs, and left while i was in the bathroom without saying goodbye (instead saying to my friend: "tell my girlfriend i said bye." and while he was outside with my co-workers, he says, "why is she acting so weird?"

i'm too tired from work to hash this out but i wanted to record how stupid this guy is. like i fucking went out of my way to be friendly and not-awkward. so what the fuck about being weird?

i'm done with games!!